Coming of age and responsibility

When we learn the intricacies of life and realize we often find it to be much harder then one would ever expect. Bills, problems, all the surprises, and unforeseen events. Thinking over the past year and you might find that you've grown more then you had ever expected. What you would be even more shocked by is the fact there is so much more still to come. The experience of greater joys, heart break, finding your true passion in life, and ect. We are all still so young to life and the things it has to offer us all at any age. Looking back i've come a long ways but still find so much more that i need to learn and experience. Things can tend to pile up and overwhelm us but its crucial to remember that we are never alone in this crazy world. Family and friends play such an important role. You may think, "oh i'm not close with my family, or many people don't like you". When it comes down to it and you have no where else to turn they will surprise you by coming through in a time of need. Its never to late to fix a broken relationship or strengthen a current one. No one person in this world is strong enough to handle life on their own and still be happy. We all need a shoulder to lean on occasionally don't let your pride be your downfall. Learn to deal with what you can and rely on those close to you when you have to. There is a fine line you never want to abuse the trust of someone you care about. If you ever find yourself in the lowest of lows, just remember things will eventually get better if you really try at them. I don't mean if you just give things a bit of attention here and there. The best way to put it is if you want to succeed at something as bad as you want to breathe then you will. So keep the good memories in your heart, learn from failures, and mistakes made. Most of us are just starting out in our exploration of this world and ourselves. A long road lies before us and we do have the means to make the journey.

So i found my passion!

I think over time we slowly figure out what we want to do but we change our minds so much its hard to decide what we really want. But over the course of the past 2 years I found I’m infatuated with sound! Like running sound for plays, musicals, and bands. I really want to look into the recording aspect of it to. I know I’m not the best or anywhere close but I would love to learn more and make a career of it as silly as that may sound, but I’m pretty sure I want to stick with this and see how it pans out.

I have been thinking a lot as of late about relationships, and how I always seem to get screwed over…but what can ya do? I mean no one usually catches my interest but as of late one person has and well I thought it was headed somewhere we went on a date on valentines’ day and I thought we had a good time but now she is dating some other guy…really?

Other than that my parents keep talking about moving and leaving me at the house while my brother and his friend move in so I can stay. It kind of makes me wonder if they care, they want to get away from me, or if they are just crazy? I just don’t know…
I have wondered a lot about my friends lately how we don’t talk a lot and if I’m losing them because of it I’m hoping not. I think I’m going to get a job at party galaxy but it’s nothing for sure.

We say farewell as we emabrace another year

I as many of us feel that the end of the year is a sad but rewarding time. I take it as a chance reflect over the accomplishments, new friendships, priceless memories, as well as the let downs, failures, and the moments I wish I could forget, that’s happened throughout the year. It really kind of gives me the feeling I’m really a year older and wiser from what I have learned and done through the year. The year’s end also reminds me that I have another year to look upon and prepare for. I know that as mature and wise that I may feel that when I look back at the next year’s end I will look back and see myself as foolish and immature for all the things that I haven't experienced or the lessons I hadn’t learned. As I look back on this year I realize that this was a better year for me then some past, and for that I am grateful. I may spend this New Years Eve alone but I know that it’s not about who you’re with at the time but what they would do if they were here. That alone helps me get by. So for all of you who are saying goodbye sadly to this year just remember the next can be just as great you just have to be optimistic. For all of you that have goals or resolutions from this year that you may have not been able to reach don't fret, the New Year holds just as much opportunity and fortune for you.

Happy New Years to everyone across the globe!
I wish you all the best New Year from the bottom of my heart!

The cloth that binds us and the barriers that divide us

I have noticed for some time that I find a lot of interest in other cultures language, diversities, and customs. I go through blogger looking to find people that I might find interesting and would like to talk to but I come across the same issue that others speak different languages. I would love to have the chance to meet people around the world and learn what they are like. I mean that I could have someone who could be my best friend but I’d never really know because we probably couldn’t communicate. I think it’s kind of sad really. I almost wish there was a universal language that came from all languages. I believe that no one language is better than another. It almost feels like we teach our own separate languages to separate our countries, I highly doubt this is the case but its something many people over look. I plan to learn as many languages I can in the near future and I hope to travel the world and maybe one day bring all our great nations closer together with a better understanding of every ones cultures and languages. We all have something to say so let’s make it so everyone can hear it.

I won't stand alone.

So I have been thinking about this song a lot lately and its been speaking to me. I'm not really sure how to interpret the song because I recently lost what I thought to be a best friend but it turns out he really wasn’t. The song is from the artist Johnny Pacar (he’s pretty much like my hero.) Any way this song originally débuted on the hit show Flight 29 down on Discovery kids, it’s about a class that was traveling to a resort and they crash land on a deserted island and try to survive with hope of rescue.(Watch it if you haven’t seen it.) Any way he talks about how things out there get way to deep and tensions clash but that even in then end if they don't make it out that in the end he will be with his friends. I can't help but to be captivated by this guys genius, but the song just hits that spot where you know it has something to do with your life. I feel like I have lost a lot in my life recently a best friend, the girl I like to another guy, respect from a lot of people and I’m just used so I don't really know but I guess that life has been worse for me I just can’t help but feel a little sad every day when I think about it even though I know that people have bigger issues in their life that make mine look petty. Thanks for taking the time to read my story thus far and if you would like ill post the video of Johnny Pacar’s: I won't stand alone.

I Won't Stand Alone by Johnny Pacar